"Has he been treated for these issues?"
I'm sick of doctors. I'm tired of their waiting rooms, with tattered children's books of questionable intellectual merit and greying mismatched toys. I'm sick of explaining again and again my son's medical history, intellectual and social development, recapping his entire life within 15 minutes, praying that I haven't left out anything significant.
"Why don't you shine a tiny light into his ears? I don't think he's cured yet, maybe that will help" I want to shout, dripping sarcasm all over the inoffensive tan carpets, splattering my increasing cynicism on the walls, laden with proof of their certified competancy.
Nothing ever gets done.
"It's best to catch these things early"
Early. When he's screamed for 20 hours straight for the 6th week in a row and he's only 7 weeks old? Not that early. How about when he's barely walking and retaining his bowels and goes into fits of pure terror when you go through an automatic door or take an escalator? Not then either. You mean like, when he's 3 years old and throwing temper tantrums that convincingly mirror demonic possession? Clearly not. Howabout when a concerned mother brings their 5 year old to you, because noone can understand what he's saying most of the time, he won't make eye contact and has stepped up the tantrums to such a degree that her face is perpetually bruised. Nope. When he has a debilitating migraine at seven, we'll shine lights in his ears. We'll ask if he's ever been treated, we'll pretend to care.
"Yep, that's a migraine alright." Thanks, you overpaid goober. Clearly I need to put a pencil grip on his pencil, stock up on ibuprofen and hope he adjusts.
I'm tired of it.
I'm fucking numb.
I don't remember the names of all the doctors who have heard these reports. There's been too fucking many of them. Who cares what THEY thought? I'm asking YOU. What do YOU think? None of them seem to think anything at all. They all want to know what other doctors have said. Every. Last. One. Of. Them. Why yes, that does include the first.
"Let me write you a referral. This neurologist is highly lauded. This psychologist used to work for the board of education. This pediatrician specializes in that. It's a long way to go, but it's worth it."
"Now, Basil, I'm going to shine this little light into your ears. It won't hurt, I'm just taking a look."
